Today has been such an emotionally trying day as we try to figure out our living situation while the clock loudly ticks away. These past few months whenever we have hit a rough patch in our lives my go to sanity reliever is to go and do something to help someone even less fortunate. It always seems to put things into perspective for me.
So earlier I had Jay make up 2 sandwiches on my way out to Target determined that I would find someone in desperate need of food. As I was getting ready to leave Aniah asked me if I was going to feed the homeless people because she wanted to go. Both of us drove up and down Fredericksburg Rd until Aniah pointed out a homeless man sleeping on a bus bench underneath a pile of clothes in this Texas heat!!!
At first I didn't want to go up to this man because my excuse was he was sleeping and there were other people at that bus stop who would see me. As shameful as that sounds it is the truth. I can't lie to God so why lie to you all right? I felt that way because the thought of going out of my comfort zone scared me.
However sitting in that car with my 9 year old daughter I knew that I had to do what was right. So I pulled into the parking lot directly behind that old city bus bench and I quietly approached the gentle sleeping man sprawled out on his hard metal bed. At the end of the bench right at his feet I left those 2 sandwiches and quietly walked away.
As I got back into the car my sweet Aniah said "Mom when he wakes up it will be as if food just magically appeared! I sure wish I could see his smile!" It was then and there that God taught me an even bigger lesson. He is always working behind the scenes even when we are sleeping. He is still to this day a miracle performing God and somehow always manages to supply our needs. As scary as my living situation is right now I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that Heavenly Father is working behind the scenes on this too.
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